貓在他鄉的日子

Since he left, I dreamed about him every night...In these dreams, we were together but I was conscious of something wrong, I tried to figure ot, but he always hided his feeling and something...his attiitude disquieted me, the hard I want to know, the deep he hided...Then I woke up and could not tell its a reality or a dream...

Perhaps, in my subconsciousness, I just don't want to accept what was really  happened....

Although I know I have to concentrate on the Friday exam first, but I cannot....I cannot stop thinking these...
I dont know how can my eyes come out so many tears, I feel tired but cannot stop crying....I know I need some sleep but even counting sheeps wont help....

There is no way can go back, and no direction for the future as well....I hesitate....but no exit no exit no exit....

How should I do? I want to find out one way to escape everything.....everything......